Summer.....

Here comes another Summer...a warm beautiful summer to remind us that life is not just a never-ending chilly winter...This is also the time I miss eating the sour mango pickles, the sweeeet smell of jasmine flowers and the vibrant yellow flowered trees that you find on the streets of Hyderabad...

This season always reminds me of the vacations we used to take to our grand-parents village. When they were much younger and more healthy, I absolutely adored the amount of energy levels they had....especially my grandma. She was so enthusiastic about everything, playing with us, managing the daily chores, making our favorite food everyday, taking us out for movies to the nearest town, making a mala out of the jasmine flowers for me....The list is just endless. My grandpa used to talk to us more during the evenings....Lying down under the starry sky, he used to make up shapes by connecting a few stars and tell us a story behind it. He even used to recite a few 'padyams' praising babu towards the end! These memories come back to me so frequently this summer but not earlier..Probably 'coz now I have the time to think about all these.....Probably because my grandparents are no longer so enthusiastic owing to their health problems. I really miss those days and wish they were always the same!

Summer in the US is not that bad either....I love the flood of strawberries in Walmart, the vibrant tulips.....and just the fact that I don't have to wear a sweater anymore (Well.....at least for a few months I mean!)

Just wish people never aged and summer never died!

Fear!

I always used to think pain is the strongest emotion any human being can experience. May be that's why we remember all the movies which have a sad ending soo well....Happiness is never so complete or so strong because when we are happy, we think we deserve to be happy :-) But when something goes wrong, it stays in our mind for a very long time....but this week I realized I was wrong, FEAR is the strongest emotion of all....Fear that life will never get better, fear that life will always take a downturn, fear of losing the the most precious thing in our life.....I have been experiencing this for the last couple of weeks and this emotion was so strong and so hard to overcome.....It just stays in your mind even in your sleep! I am sooo glad that this phase is done and I am back to being normal.....I never want to live in fear again!